http://jester015.vox.com/library/posts/page/1/ en Vox Fri, 04 Dec 2009 03:34:08 -0800 Copyright 2009 http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/are-you-gently-sleeping-here-inside-my-dream.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Jess) http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/are-you-gently-sleeping-here-inside-my-dream.html?_c=feed-rss http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/are-you-gently-sleeping-here-inside-my-dream.html?_c=feed-rss Fri, 04 Dec 2009 03:34:08 -0800 I am dreaming of babies. I wake with an ache deep in my womb, throbbing to remind me of the emptiness left instead. In that sleep-wake world, I feel your lips encircle my nipple, your tiny fingers curling and uncurling in ecstasy alongside my bre... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/are-you-gently-sleeping-here-inside-my-dream.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e39897869d00010123ddc59222860b?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/enter-the-sun.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Jess) http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/enter-the-sun.html?_c=feed-rss http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/enter-the-sun.html?_c=feed-rss Sat, 28 Nov 2009 01:35:26 -0800 Today, the Sun shone. This brilliant illuminescent orb that filled the corners of this dark space; it left the shadows retreating in defeat, those that loomed large. It pulled me from the darkness and thrust me towards it's warmth. I am looking t... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/enter-the-sun.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e39897869d00010123ddd8440f860c?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/womans-wellness.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Jess) http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/womans-wellness.html?_c=feed-rss http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/womans-wellness.html?_c=feed-rss Thu, 26 Nov 2009 02:36:26 -0800 I have been putting it off for a week and a half. It shouldn't be so hard. This is something I do, for me. Ensure my health is optimum, that my reproductive health is good. But it is hard. God it is so hard. It is harder than anything else I coul... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/womans-wellness.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e39897869d00010123ddd7a0e4860c?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/things-i-whisper-into-the-darkness.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Jess) http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/things-i-whisper-into-the-darkness.html?_c=feed-rss http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/things-i-whisper-into-the-darkness.html?_c=feed-rss Sun, 22 Nov 2009 03:03:35 -0800 <p class="enclosed-assets" style="margin-bottom: 10px;"> <a href="http://jester015.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e39897869d000101240b7c854e860e.html?_c=feed-rss" style="float:left; margin-right:6px;"><img src="http://a6.vox.com/6a00e39897869d000101240b7c854e860e-50si" alt="025" /></a> <br style="clear:both;" /> </p> I am hopeful. I have dreams, I have goals. The night will end. The dawn will come. The nightmares will fade into calm reality. No one can hurt me. I am safe. I am safe. I am tired. I am scared. I am lonely. I am sad. I am broken. I hate you, I ... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/things-i-whisper-into-the-darkness.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e39897869d000101240b7c85d8860e?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/as-we-walk-in-the-dimming-light-oh-darling-understand-that-everything-everything-ends.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Jess) http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/as-we-walk-in-the-dimming-light-oh-darling-understand-that-everything-everything-ends.html?_c=feed-rss http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/as-we-walk-in-the-dimming-light-oh-darling-understand-that-everything-everything-ends.html?_c=feed-rss Sat, 21 Nov 2009 12:31:04 -0800 <p class="enclosed-assets" style="margin-bottom: 10px;"> <a href="http://jester015.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e39897869d00010123f17fefba860f.html?_c=feed-rss" style="float:left; margin-right:6px;"><img src="http://a2.vox.com/6a00e39897869d00010123f17fefba860f-50si" alt="the boys" /></a> <br style="clear:both;" /> </p> The wind outside is wailing so hard that the windows are humming. It sounds as though this place is under demonic possession, and here in the wee hours of a November morning, I am haunted by ghosts. November will always be a difficult month for m... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/as-we-walk-in-the-dimming-light-oh-darling-understand-that-everything-everything-ends.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e39897869d00010123dde2067e860d?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/taking-up-the-challenge.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Jess) http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/taking-up-the-challenge.html?_c=feed-rss http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/taking-up-the-challenge.html?_c=feed-rss Thu, 19 Nov 2009 23:04:36 -0800 I was challenged to give an alternative spin to this post and I thought it would be an interesting thing to attempt. So, I'm taking up the challenge...seeing how these things affected me, who it led me to meet, what it taught me, how it made me wh... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/taking-up-the-challenge.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e39897869d00010123f17f32c8860f?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/in-this-moment.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Jess) http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/in-this-moment.html?_c=feed-rss http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/in-this-moment.html?_c=feed-rss Tue, 17 Nov 2009 01:24:04 -0800 Last night, the rains came. If you live on the West Coast, you will understand what this means without me having to elaborate. All through the night I listened to it pound against the roof. Under the soft glare of the streetlamp, it bounced and r... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/in-this-moment.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e39897869d00010123f17d6a74860f?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/it-doesnt-matter-what-i-do-not-for-all-my-little-words.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Jess) http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/it-doesnt-matter-what-i-do-not-for-all-my-little-words.html?_c=feed-rss http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/it-doesnt-matter-what-i-do-not-for-all-my-little-words.html?_c=feed-rss Mon, 16 Nov 2009 01:31:01 -0800 I am slowly drowning in a transparent sea. I know it to be true because the world around me carries on, unaware. Sunrise beckons, the dogs nudge me gently, outside the air is crisp and there is a scent of rain whispering in the wind. I go about m... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/it-doesnt-matter-what-i-do-not-for-all-my-little-words.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e39897869d00010123dde6dd7c860d?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/whats-wrong-with-me.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Jess) http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/whats-wrong-with-me.html?_c=feed-rss http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/whats-wrong-with-me.html?_c=feed-rss Sun, 15 Nov 2009 11:56:51 -0800 I kind of liked this list over at Schmutzie's. And I felt sort of compelled to write my own. It was scary and hard, but here's to airing everything in public. I took a puppy home from this lady with a free sign, and a sad look in her eyes, which... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/whats-wrong-with-me.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e39897869d00010123f17cc581860f?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/epic-journey.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Jess) http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/epic-journey.html?_c=feed-rss http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/epic-journey.html?_c=feed-rss Fri, 13 Nov 2009 00:51:11 -0800 <p class="enclosed-assets" style="margin-bottom: 10px;"> <a href="http://jester015.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e39897869d000101240b780a90860e.html?_c=feed-rss" style="float:left; margin-right:6px;"><img src="http://a0.vox.com/6a00e39897869d000101240b780a90860e-50si" alt="Just Be 1" /></a> <br style="clear:both;" /> </p> I yearn for silence. I spend my minutes, hours, days, constantly searching for a stillness that I don't possess. If I listen closely enough, I can capture it for a moment. When I watch the trees sway, at a drum circle, where my head naturally co... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://jester015.vox.com/library/post/epic-journey.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e39897869d00010123ddd1b180860c?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p>